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DaTe Of BiRtH: MaRcH 20
StAts: Christopher John Cuzio <3 >
NiCkNaMeS: DoRk, DoRkNeSs, PsYcHo, ChAd, ChEsTeR, DoRk FaCe LiL sIsTeR, Casper, Milky br>
BeSt FrIeNdS: Vicky, Amanda, Mike, Sean from Michigan, (my big brother!!) Chris Mauro, Ryan, Damon ( Yay ! You're back !! ) Tegan, Alex, ( love ya, man !!! ) Ashlee, Bartshley, Lea, Maggie, Lyss, Kaytee, Marty, Kev, Ant, Jim, Jake, ( my fellow goat ... lmao ) Manny, Billy #1 and Billy #2, Jeremy from Florida, Corey, ( I love you ... hee hee ) Zach, Egzon, JOHN !!!! lmao ... and there are probably a couple more people who i can't remember because I'm a dork ... tee hee. I love you guys to death, you don't know how much you mean to me. <3
*Chris - I love you more than words could ever explain. You are absolutely, perfectly amazing. I'm looking forward to forever, darling. You put my heart back together, you know. You'll never understand how much you mean to me. I love you so much ...
*Don't make it look so pretty burning ...
*It isn't that much fun, staring down a loaded gun.
*Maybe the best I can get it simply burned by ::fate::
*I fell for you and now I'm falling apart ...
*Sing me something soft, sad and delicate, or loud and out of key, sing me anything ...
*Ash his heart onto the ground. Pull his guts out by frustration. Be careful .. you just might kill him.
*You could stay and watch me fall, and of course I'll ask for help ...
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Friday, May 13, 2005
Wowie, I forgot about my blog
The last time I wrote in my blog was ... I don't even remember.
I got out with an amazing guy named Christopher, and in a week it'll be our 4 month anniversery. My friend Marty got into a car accident about a month ago and almost died, but he's okay now. Green became my new favorite color, especially lime green. I made a myspace, and it's freaking fun as hell. I'm addicted. Completely. They call me a "Myspace Whore" but it's only a joke. Me and Vicky Smey became really good friends since softball strated and my team is undefeated so far ; 4-0, bitches. My basketball team did really good in the season too. AAU is still great ... I actually have a tournament this weekend; the Ironman Tournament. I'm leaving for Washington D.C for a classtrip in 3 days, and I'm REALLY fucking excited. I'm rooming with Ashlee, Shayna, and Maggie. Shayna is a new girl from about November, and she's flipping hilarious. I saw Napoleon Dynamite and it became one of my most favorite movies in the whole world. I also saw Sin City, and that was crazy awesome too. It's May now .. it's been a really long time. I became friends with Mike Bansak, Alex Bansak's older brother ... and that's funny because I used to have a HUGE crush on Alex. I don't anymore. I'm going to see him in his band with Jimbo and Alex and Dave Roberts perform at the high school talent show tonight. It's gonna be amazing. I became a really big fan of The Used and My Chemical Romance. I'm still into underground emo and all that stuff .. I've always been an emo loser. Right now I'm in Ms. Foley's room sitting next to Ryan Behrle drawing a penis on Lauren's history homework. Quite funny. I'm still in 8th grade .. it's almost over. I'm going to the Honor's Banquet on the 23rd, and I'm graduating in June. Time flies heh ? But hey .. things change. I'lll try and keep wrting in this thing .. I really will. Talk to you on the flip flop ..
-Casper <3 I <3 Christopher*
Posted at 11:03 am by xXPunkRockerxX
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
Hey hey hey ...
Yeah yeah yeah, it's been a while again, oh well. Not alot has happened ... actually, nothing has even happened at all ... Me and Chris' anniversery was on January 25th !!! Sure, it was only our 1 month, but hey, that's one of the most important ! lol. My birthday is in 11 days !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't wait ... I really hope I can get to the East On December show on the19th, the day before my birthday .. that'd be the best present yet, lol. I haven't seen them live since Rock the Valley wayyyyyy back in like, the beginning of the year. They have sent me some emails back though so it's fucking awesome to actually have personalized letters written to me. I've started calling Zach again, only for a little while though. It feels good to talk to him again, ya know ? He still won't let me live down the fact that I broke up with him ... oh well. If he wants to taste sweet revenge by always telling me May 9th is his dying day and all this other stuff and telling me it's my fault, then so be it, becuase I have no choice but to sit back and take it ... because it is my fault. Me and Chris are perfect ... nothing has gone wrong, lol. God, do I love him ... I wish I could put some pics up on here to show you how fucking gorgeous he is, but ... I'm too poor to pay for it, lol. Ummm ... Kaytee broke up with her boyfriend Taylor and now she goes out with Mike everyone ... Mike Caridi ... I actually really liked Taylor though ... so did Chris. He was a good guy. But Mike is Mike, and I love Mike with all my heart, so that's good too. I had a tournament this weekend for AAU ... first tourney of the season, and .... my team is fucking state champions BEOTCH. Lmao .... but seriously, I'm not kidding ... we won the championship, lol. It feels good ... we got a plaque and all this shizznit. Other than all this ... nothing else has happened. It's been pretty boring around here, actually. Lexie, my little sis, is sick ... i think it's the flu. I spend my days spraying door knobs and faucet handles with fucking Lysol disinfectent spray, and washing my hands every time I touch something, lol. It's quite sad, actually ... oh well. But there really isn't anything else to write about so ... I'll write as soon as possible ... Catch ya on the flip flop, later ... *
* The Dork
Posted at 02:42 pm by xXPunkRockerxX
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
Hey everyone ...
Yeah, it's been a while, I know. But hey, I'm back ... last time I wrote, I was going on and on about me starting to go out with Chris. Welps .... I'M GONNA DO IT NOW TOOOOOOOOO, MUH HA HA HA HA !!! Tee hee. It's February vaca at the moment ... Tuesday to be exact. Every Saturday of the past 4 weeks have been the best days of my life ... besides the day I met Chris, and the day it was official that we were together. I've been going to his house with Kaytee, and this past Saturday she brough her lover Taylor ... lol. Just like Chris says in his journal ... no details for you, that's for only us to know ... tee hee. Then we went to the movies and saw Hitch ... cute movie, lol. But what I'm trying to say is that I'm truely and completely in love with Christopher John Cuzio. It will be a month on this up-coming Friday ... but it feels like a year already. I can't even go a whole day without seeing him at least once, and when I really do have to ... it hurts really bad. Seriously ... I've never loved anyone this much in my life ... he is absolutely perfectly amazing ... Chris, this is going to last forever. I know it's hard to say something like that, but I believe that next year, we'll be together. And the year after that ... and the year after that ... like I say to you all the time ... I'm looking forward to forever. Umm ... well, this is a very deep entry. Nothing else has really happened that's more important to me than Chris, so I'm just gonna keep talking .... tee hee. Maybe I'll just write this to you ... I just want to tell you that I love you more than anyone could ever understand. "If you're ready to make the jump, I'll be right here to catch you." <------ hmmmmm ... does that sound familiar? Tee hee ... the first movie we ever watched under the covers together ... HOW TO DEAL !!!! Chick flicks are the fucking best Muh ha ha ha ... welps, I love you Chris, don't ever forget it. Nothing and nobody can come between us ... Forever is a strong word, isn't it ? Well ... I mean it with everything I've got.
"If I had it my way, I'd turn the car around, and run away ... just you and I ..."
-Tiger Lily*
* I love you Christopher John Cuzio ...
Posted at 04:37 pm by xXPunkRockerxX
Friday, January 28, 2005
I'm still the happiest girl alive ...
Hey hey everyone ..
Dude, I'm so freakin bored right now ... my parents are gonna be out for a while, they're all out on a date like losers ... Matt (my sister's boyfriend) is coming over to babysit because my mom has asked him to because Sam is working tonight at Applebee's .. but he doesn't even have to come because I've already got the kids sleeping. WTF ? They fall asleep at 6:43 at night .. it's not even night, it's like, morning .. lol. So now he's just gonna come and watch footballor something. But the point is that it's Friday and I have absolutely nothing to ... except think about Chris. And ya know what ? That's fucking FINE WITH ME. I could sit here and think about him for hours and keep myself company, lol. But I do wish I could see him ... tomorrow we're goin to the movies !! Yay ! I don't really know what we're gonna go see, but I know that we're going with a whole mob of people, like we always do, lol. Chris is amazing, seriously. Everybody practically knows him now .. random people in my class say hi to him in the hallways in school all the time when they see me and him together, lol. HOLY FUCK !!!!!!!!!!! DAMON IS COMING BACK !!!!!! Damon moved to Washington when his dad died, and he was only to come back for 9th grade to go to Emmit ... BUT HE'S COMING TO DERBY !!! And he's coming on MONDAY !!!!!!!!!!! HOLY CRAP, I'm so fucking excited, lol. I've missed him sooo sooo sooo much, it's not even funny. I'm so happy !!!! It's gonna be just like it used to be .. Damon will be back and everyone will be happy. Yay !!! Chris told me he thought it was safe to say that he loves me. Wowie .. lol. And honestly .. I love him too. It's fucking CRAZY, I know, and I have no idea how I can love someone so so so quickly .. I mean, I've never done that before. But I do ... seriously. He makes me feel ... breathless. I can't really find the words to explain in really well, so just take these few words and be happy. But anywho .. nothing else has really happened ... it's been pretty boring, actually. I mean, it's never boring but .. lol. I got class clown in school .. what the hell is that nonsense ? lol. I've never gotten class clown, but it suddenly changed .. hmmm .. tee hee. Welps, I think I'm gonna go because I don't have much to do. I'm gonna go talk to Chris .. lol. Matt's here so we're just gonna sit around and do nothing .. so, see ya on the flip side, nerds.
* I love you, Chris ...
*Casper
Posted at 06:54 pm by xXPunkRockerxX
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
AHHHH I couldn't be any happier right now. Well, it's official; I flippin go out with Chris, and I seriously seriously am so happy right now, I could scream. And of course, it'd be a happy scream ... lol. After everything that has been happening lately, how everything has suddenly just been shitty and going downhill like crazy, Chris has made it all okay. I read his journal and it's so sweet that I seriously hold my breath. I remember when Maggie and I used to try and get him to notice me .. we'd run in the halls and talk loud and walk RIGHT next to him .. but I always thought that I never had a chance with him. I didn't think things like this could happen to me .. they never have. This is like .. something that would happen in my dreams. I don't know how to explain how much he means to me though. Chris, if you ever read this .. you mean more than the world to me. You've made things sooo much better and I don't know if I could be any happier .. probably not. You make me unbelievably happy Chris !!! I had a game yesterday .. we lost by like, 25, but I didn't care because Chris was there, and I could just look over and feel so much better, lol. I'm still sick .. damn sinus infection. It snowed today, so we have no school. WTF why is it snowing so much ?!?!? It ruins everything, lol. I'm watching Lazy Town on Disney right now, waiting for Chris to come back from sleeping and talk to me .. lol. But umm .. I'm too damn happy to write right now so .. I'll right more later. I'M SO HAPPY !!!!! tee hee ... <3 Chris
*Casper
Posted at 10:37 am by xXPunkRockerxX
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
HOLY MAN ... i'm so freakin happy now. As of last night, I go out with CHRIS !!! Most of you probably don't care but .. believe me, I haven't been this happy for a while. I mean, I was when I met Dan and everything .. I mean, I was more than happy .. but then when we knew we couldn't go out or anything, things just went downhill. But now I'm soooooo damn happy right now. Chris, you made my life turn around, and you don't know how much that means to me. Believe me .. happiness like this doesn't come around easily for me, so I'm gonna flippin cherish it, lol. I'm still sick, and ya know, I'm still pretty damn bummed out about the whole Melson thing .. man, I'm gonna miss him. I had to leave school early yesterday because I was soooo sick. But then, I went online and talked to Chris and everything happened last night ... so I was feeling a whole lot better. But this sinus infection is really getting to me .. with all this "severe pressure" against my skull. *sighs* Welps, since I'm in Ms. Pysz' room and the bell is gonna ring in like 5 minutues so I'm gonna go see Chris .. my darling. lol. Ummm I'll write more soon !!! I'M SO HAPPY !!!!!!
Posted at 11:01 am by xXPunkRockerxX
Monday, January 24, 2005
I know I just wrote like .. 5 minutes ago, but 5 minutes ago, I wasn't effing crying. Chris .. ahh !!! He flippin asked me out .. but he said he needs to do it in person because it means more to him. AHH !!!!! I'm so happy ... I'm so excited .. I am fucking loving every angle of my life right now ...
*Casper
Posted at 08:29 pm by xXPunkRockerxX
Whoaaa i'm in a good mood. Well, technically, not really, because I'm realllllly sick right now. I have a stupid ass sinus infection which SUCKS. But i'm happy because i have been talking to Chris .. and I like him a whole LOT, lol. I dunno, I've been talking to him alot lately and he's really awesome ... and he apparently likes me too ... so he says, lol. That'd be awesome ... lol. My couple of weeks haven't been the greatest so something like this can make me so flippin happy, you wouldn't even believe. Ummm .. Zach and I got into a really big fight .. it was hard, and I cried for the first time while talking to him or in front of him, except for last year on the mourning day for Timmy. That was the only other time he's seen me cry. But I cried this time because I guess he said some things he shouldn't have .. it just hurt really bad. He said stuff about me breaking his heart and stuff ... I know I did, but it destroys me when people rub it in my face. I know what I did, but I don't need to hear any crap about it, I'm ruined enough as it is. But other than all this shit, I'm pretty darn happy with all this Chris stuff going on in my head ... it makes me really happy, ya know ? Maybe, just maybe, this can be a start to end my problem of living in the past. Chris .. you're the best !!!!! tee hee. Welps, this was only a short entry because I fucking feel like shit .. I hate being so sick. There's like, severe pressure against my skull. My doctor told me that. I take that to be really bad, lol. Um ... must be on my way !!! I'm too sick to write .. plus, I'm gonna go think about Chris. lol ... See ya'll on the flip flop ... Later*
*Casper
Posted at 08:11 pm by xXPunkRockerxX
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
Hey hey hey ... I'm in academic prep at the moment, doing nothing because we have a sub and he doesn't give a crap what we're doing. A decent amount of stuff has happened, ya know ... same old, same old, couple things a day. Lexie, my little 3 year old sister, is potty trained now !!! It all went down last night after my cousin Brook's birthday party. So, since she went on the potty (she's so funny, lol) we took her to Chuck E. Cheeses as some sort of celebration for her. Me, Sam, my mom, Lexie and Ray Ray went and ya know, I haven't been there since I was about 5 years old, so i had a freakin ball, lol. Plus, Marty, Ant and Jim went there to meet me and they were makin it funny, lol. Marty was hitting on Lexie, ha ha ha. He was like "She's kinda cute .. tell her to give me a call in a couple years ..." I love Marty. I went to see White Noise last weekend with Kaytee, her friend Kelly, Marty, Kev, and Ant .. it wasn'y as scary as I expected it to be, but whatever, I was still freaked out. Too many dead people were in it, and these tree dudes were like, shadows, and they kept following that guy and girl ... wierd. It was sad too though ... I cried at the end when the son lost both his parents to the ghosts, and the dad came on the radio after the funeral and said, "I'm sorry Mikey." It was so flippin sad, lol. Ummm ... Then, this weekend on Saturday, I went to see Coach Carter wit Tegan, Gemma, Phyllis, and a bunch of other people, but it would take way too long to list all the names, lol. Ummm ... I just learned from Maggie that East On December is having a show on March 5th in Easton Ct ... WE ARE SO FUCKING GOING !!! lol. They're playing with Secnd Guess too, which is awesome because they were at Rock The Valley too, and really god. And the band And Then I Turned 7 is playing too. Oh man, East On December got into A CAR ACCIDENT !! Zach told me the other night .. Dan broke HIS NOSE !!! *dies* I love Dan .. but he's okay, and as long as nothing happened to the band and nobody got seriously hurt and nobody died .. everything is all gravy baby. Um . everything with me and my Dan is all good. We aren't going out, because we know it would be like a long distance relationship and that's hard when he lives only a few towns over, but you still can't see him because your parents are FREAKS. Dammit ... Dan means alot to me, I'm serious. I guess it's simply burned by fate ya know ? I'll live .. I guess. Zach is home sick i believe, because I called him last night and I woke him up, not knowing he was sick or sleeping in that case. He said that everything hurts ... I hope he feels better !!!! I hope he knows how much I love him. Sometimes it feels like he just doesn't understand, or that he doesn't feel it anymore like he used to ... before Sara came into the picture, and relaized that she doesn't like me very much because of the fact tat me and him have a close friendship, and still love eachother and always will. Melson's girlfriend hates me, and told me never to tak to him again or else she was gonna have Jenna or whatever come and beat the shit outa me. Melson was one of me best friends ... she said that he said that I meant nothing to him, never had and never will. She said that he cut is palm and swore to her, over is blood and his heart, that he would never talk to me, never see me, never mention my name, and never lay eyes upon me ever again. That made me so upset, I mean ... I've had his back forever, and he was gonna give that up just because his girlfriend doesn't like me? Oh man, that's fucking low .. lower than low. I haven't found out of it's true or not yet .. I'm still thinking about, after it happened a week ago. I cry alot, ya know? I'm the most sensetive and emotionalperson that alot of people ahve ever met ... so I cried a whole lot over this. I wonder why he would do this ? I risked my life in order to save him the pain of heartbeak ... i got beaten up by his ex's girlfriend's older bro because i knew she was cheating on him and I stood up for him and sceamed my lungs out at her; i his honor, I got beaten up by a guy, an it fucking hurt. Doesn't he know how much our friendship meant to both of us? It pisses me off that he's might be throwing it away ... but I'm mostly ruined by it ... I'm ripped apart because it hurts to lose such a good friend. I hope this is all a lie ... just one big lie ..
Casper*
Posted at 11:03 am by xXPunkRockerxX
Friday, January 07, 2005
Well look whose back again to tell you about everything that's happened in the past, i don't know .. couple of months ? Well, for one, sorry it's been so long .. i've been grounded. And yeah, again, lol. Well, the last entry, i was going out with Manny. That ended after about a week because he was just not for me. I've never said that in my life, but it's truer that true. I went to the movies that night with Kev. Marty, Jim, Tim, Kaytee, Ant, and Tegan .. it was funner than fuck, lol. We were crazy, and i'm fuckin surprised we didn't get kicked out. I don't go out with anyone now .. flying solo, like Kev said. He told me it's the best way to go, because you don't have anything to worry about ... he's definitely right. Um .. Seanie is expelled for bringing stupid shit like pot and a knife and condoms and a lighter and all this other shit to school. He got arrested and everything. I was laughing my ass off .. it was so funny. He's such a loser ... who gets expelled anymore ?? lol. About 2 weeks ago, i went to the Danbury Mall and i met a guy there. His name is Dan, and i totally fell for the guy. I've seen him twice, and i talk to him all the time. We just clicked, i guess ... He's an amazing guy, really. The second time i went, i brought Tegan and Kaytee to meet him, and they really like him too. They said he's not like other guys ... he's not a scumbag, lol. Zach seems to think so though .. i sorry Zach, but he isn't, i swear !!! he's a good guy, i promise. And if he decides to become one, i give you full permission to kick his ass so hard his ears bleed. But i have to get going ... there really isn't anything else exciting happening, unless the fact that i'm painting my room is cool ... lol. Welps, talk to you freaks whenever i feel like coming back to update again .. feel free to hate me for it, but you all suck so .. nahh i'm just kidding. I love you all! mm hmm ... sureeeee ... tee hee. ttyl, dorkwads ..
- The Dork
Posted at 11:04 am by xXPunkRockerxX
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