NaMe: ViCtOrIa EvElYn QuEeN
DaTe Of BiRtH: MaRcH 20
StAts: Christopher John Cuzio <3 >
NiCkNaMeS: DoRk, DoRkNeSs, PsYcHo, ChAd, ChEsTeR, DoRk FaCe LiL sIsTeR, Casper, Milky br>
BeSt FrIeNdS: Vicky, Amanda, Mike, Sean from Michigan, (my big brother!!) Chris Mauro, Ryan, Damon ( Yay ! You're back !! ) Tegan, Alex, ( love ya, man !!! ) Ashlee, Bartshley, Lea, Maggie, Lyss, Kaytee, Marty, Kev, Ant, Jim, Jake, ( my fellow goat ... lmao ) Manny, Billy #1 and Billy #2, Jeremy from Florida, Corey, ( I love you ... hee hee ) Zach, Egzon, JOHN !!!! lmao ... and there are probably a couple more people who i can't remember because I'm a dork ... tee hee. I love you guys to death, you don't know how much you mean to me. <3
*Chris - I love you more than words could ever explain. You are absolutely, perfectly amazing. I'm looking forward to forever, darling. You put my heart back together, you know. You'll never understand how much you mean to me. I love you so much ...
*Don't make it look so pretty burning ...
*It isn't that much fun, staring down a loaded gun.
*Maybe the best I can get it simply burned by ::fate::
*I fell for you and now I'm falling apart ...
*Sing me something soft, sad and delicate, or loud and out of key, sing me anything ...
*Ash his heart onto the ground. Pull his guts out by frustration. Be careful .. you just might kill him.
*You could stay and watch me fall, and of course I'll ask for help ...
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Saturday, November 27, 2004
Hey hey hey ...
I am so goddamn bored, geez louize. i go out with Manny everyone !!! toot toot, and i want Seanie to know it, too. i think he was waiting for me to rub it in his face by going out with Manny after he asked Maggie out "because he was bored", so i am; i'm gonna rub it in his face and make his ears bleed somehow ... lol. basketball starts on Monday .. yay. i just can't WAIT to run my heart out ... lol. TEGAN !!! i think Ryan is coming down from Washington ( CT ) to play us in basketball !! oh man, we finally get to meet Ryan ... i'm so flippin excited. i talked to him last night at like, 2 in the morning ... he's freakin out too, lol. tonight is gonna be pretty fun .. im goin to see the Spongebob movie again tonight, but with Tegan, Kaytee, the Homosexual Stripper, and Bruno this time. holy man, this should be hilarious. dude, the homosexual stripper liked me a month ago !! thats uncool, i should've known about this, lol. oh well, we talked about it last night. actually, i have to call him .... lol. he invited me to go to Smiles with him but of course, i'm babysitting ... fuck. lol. welps, i think i'm gonna go get ready to go to Tegan's, she'll probably do my hair ... then we'll call Kaytee, and call the stripper (who is Kevin Borshort ... or however you spell it, lol ) and see what time we're goin and if he's givin us a ride, if we even need one ...which we doubt. but now, i'm gonna go watch a movie on Teegz new BIG SCREEN TV, BIIIIIAAAAAAATTTTTCHHH !!! lol. i'll write more later, maybe. homosexual stripper, here i flippin come !!!! lmao ... i watched Harry Potter toooooooo much today. and i'm so proud of you, Kev !!!! you quit drinking and smoking !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol, but now ... Red Bull is your replacement, lmao. welps ... talk to ya'll later !!! x0x0x0
Xx Casper xX
Posted at 03:42 pm by xXPunkRockerxX
Monday, November 22, 2004
Just a few things to let out ...
Hey everyone ...
it's been a good amount of time since i last wrote, but not alot has happened, really. well, Seanie was an asshole for a good part of 3 hours on the phone about a week ago, and it pissed me the hell off. so i gave him what he deserved, actually told him he was a dick, and hung up on him. then i think it dawned on him that he might just have to lay off all the assumptions about me and my feelings or else i'd kick his little sha bang bangs so hard his ears would bleed. *sighs* it kills me to have to be so put down about something that i did that i knew was right for me, you know ? so Seanie has gotten a tad bit better with the attitude. Manny is falling hard for me, which is so cute, but so scary because i'm afraid Seanie is gonna rip his heart out sooner or later. but you know what ? he lied up the wahoozle, and i'm not gonna fall for all the shit he's giving me, and we'll see what happens with Manny. Billy never asked me out like he said he was ... i mean, i still like him alot, but it was almost like he led me on, being such a little lover around me when we were only around Alex or Tegan or Tristen ... but when we're in school or something, he just acts like nothing ever happened. i guess i'm still waiting but ... ya know, the same old will probably happen; i'll be left in the dust to cope with nothing and nobody to hold onto. and Melson ... *sighs* he never really got the hints. i've liked Melson since two summers ago ... when i first met him at the Boys and Girls club summer camp. i really really liked him, always wanted to hang out with him ... i had always had the perfect moments to tell him, or the perfect time to grab his hand or even kiss him. but i never did because i never thought he felt the same way. then at Shelton Day this year, when my mom was gonna pick me up later and everyone else had left and i was with Billy and Melson only ... he was dropping hints to me for once! he had put his arms around me alot, flirted, and just randomly put his arms around my waist to pull me into his ETID sweatshirt ( Every Time I Die ) for a long hug. but after that, we haven't hung out, and i just wish he would comprehend the fact that i like him that much. i see him all the time at the Boys and Girls Club when I have games there ... but now i don't have games anymore so i'm not seeing him at all anymore ... only on occasion. of course, he always gives me hugs and flirts a bit but ... now theres word he has a girlfriend named Christine or something. *sighs* if he only knew. i guess i'll live. its funny how last year, ya know, not alot of people liked me. i had what, 3 people who liked me last year? but now, i've got guys just climbing up my tree for a little something something that they're not gonna get. the fucking audacity they have to think i'm gonna just drop to my knees for any guy because of my past. that pisses me the fuck off ... whatever. ummm .... well, i saw the Spongebob movie on Friday with Mike, Mark, Shayne, Seanie and Jake ... hilarious. ( did i already tell you me and Mike are bestest friends again? well, we are ... lol ) Jake is one of my bestest friends now, and him and Maggie broke up. he had a really hard time, but me and Steph have been calling him every single day and just talking about really lame stuff, but stuff that cracks him up. i love that kid so much ... look, its a slat edge ... lmao. well, i really don't have much else to write. i've been reading my dorky big brother's live journal, but he still hasn't said a word about me in it. i feel left out :'( .
(my dorky big brother is Sean from Michigan ...) i miss him alot, and now he's home visiting his parents, finally away from school !!! i wonder if he ever reads my blog anymore ... if he does ... I MISS YOU SEAN !!! i hope we can talk again soon, i have alot to tell you. and, a very unexpected thought just now but ... you know what ? me and Kyle Smith used to be bestest friends ... what happened ? he walks right away from me in the halls now. i guess i'm just not good enough for some people anymore. hey Maggie ... Dave Roberts actually complimented me on my "I love tater tots" shirt today. holy man, he's so fucking gorgeous. oh, wowie .. i'd bang him ... lmao ! welps, i'll talk to you all on the flip flop of time ...
Sometimes, you fall so hard, you don't realize that nobody caught you until you're already buried 6 feet under ...
You kept your head high, and slowly said a heart wrenching goodbye.
I lowered my head, let the tears pour down like rain, and whispered, "Please don't go ..."
Forever in Your Debt,
x -x- Casper -x-x
Posted at 05:17 pm by xXPunkRockerxX
Sunday, November 14, 2004
Jacob Daniel Thompson is my best American friend.
You're the best man, i love your guts !!!!
tee hee ...
Posted at 05:02 pm by xXPunkRockerxX
as bored as anyone can be ...
hey hey hey ...
Whats new ? lookie, i'm actually updating .. one day after another ! holy shit, its the shock of the century !!! hee hee ... well, its Sunday, and i have nothing to do but sit here and write about nothing. maybe i'll sing a song for you guys ... hmmm ... ehh never mind, i don't really have a good song to sing. so maybe i'll just write down a song that alot of people wont know ... but some will .........
You took the world, away from me.
I lost it all, away in my dreams.
I walked for miles, miles turned to days ... days turend away.
An emotions sillhouette, was erased with a single kiss.
And I put it off, for way too long.
Everything's broken and then you're gone ...
(evrything's broken then you're gone away) < screams*
You aimed your barrel, at my heart !!!!!!!!!
With assurance of failure I dropped it all.
You've been gone for way too long ...
Everytime I see the light,
I look away from that sight.
I couldn't run, I froze in my tracks.
Your eyes were the only thing holding me back.
An emotion's sillhouette, was erased with a single kiss.
And the dark clouds in the skies, hide the light ...
So I turn away ... so I looked away.
Everything's broken and then you're gone.
(everything's broken and then you're gone away)
You aimed your barrel, at my heart !!!!!!
With assurance of failure and I dropped it all.
You've been gone for way too long.
I LOVE EAST ON DECEMBER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hee hee, thats a great song, it's called Emotion's Silhouette. seriously, listen tot hem on purevolume.com, or just go to their site ... www.eastondecember.com because they're like,t he best band in the universe, lol. welps, i'm gonna get going. i'm probably gonna call up Jake because he told me to because he's bored ... and plus, Seanie hasn't called to talk to me in over 3 days and i'm worried about him. plus, i think i'm gonna give Zach a call, too. i'm really worried about him ... *sighs* oh, and Mike came to my house today .. he apologized, and i almost cried. he gave me the saddest puppy look ever, lol. welps, i'll talk to on the heezy for sheezy side. ha ha ha i can't believe i just said that ...
A sucker for anything acoustic ...
Casper*
Posted at 04:50 pm by xXPunkRockerxX
Saturday, November 13, 2004
Holy crap ... its been a pretty long time, lol. i haven't been able to get on because i haven't been in Tech Ed for a while, and i just forget when i go to Mrs. Pysz's room, lol. and of course, i'm still grounded at home. god dammit, i need to get back on this computer. well, to my surprise, my mom let up a bit and lets me go on internet explorer, so i probably will be ubdating a little bit more ... i hope, hee hee. ummm ... i'm trying to think of the things that have happened. well, i went to see the Grease play last weekend at Oakdale with Tegan, David, Lauren, Barb, Claude and Alex, and the play was amazing; i really really liked it. the guy who played Danny Zuko was GORGEOUS !! tee hee :) well, the last time i wrote was on Monday, 2 days after Rock the Valley, and i had seen and met Patent Pending and EAST ON DECEMBER !!!! ( oooooh my gosh, they're sooo buck nasty, and I love them, they're all so nice to me !! hee hee ) well yeah, that was awesome. and that i was going out with Seanie. well, we broke up because i was kinda scared of him for reasons i don't feel like saying ... * wink wink * some people know about it. he lied alot too, and i just didn't want a relationship like that. well, he got real upset and he was depressed ... but now Manny likes me alot now, and they're so pissed off at eachother, and im worried they're gonna create a rumble over me, the depressed little nerd. well, on Thursday, my dad, Tegan's dad, and Kaytee's dad left for Florida for a funraiser for our AAU basketball team. They're rasing 4 million dollars !! thats a shitload, hee hee. Maggie still goes out with Jake, and we had a scare with Jake at the last football game, and i broke down in tears because i thought he was gonna commit suicide, and about 15 people were gonna go to his house to make sure he was okay ... but he never did anything. actually, i have to bake him a cake for not playing video games for a whole day ... lol. ummm ... i don't really know what i'm gonna do about Manny. AND !! yes there is more. with all this fucking shit going on in my depressed life, my best guy friend in the whole world, Mike, decided yesterday that we shouldn't be best friends anymore because we're different. because we have different plans ahead of us for the future. i was flipping out, and when i said that shit like that shouldn't matter because we have such a strong friendship, being friends since about 2nd grade, he said, "Do we ABSOLUTELY have to be best friends ???" *sighs* WTF Mike, am i not cool enough for you anymore ? guess not. welps, i think i'm gonna go, theres things i really need to think about. comment if ya want ...
- Casper*
I'm a falling star that you'll never see ... *dedicated*
When you're done with the tearing,
I really hope you turn to me
And tell me all the fun you had
:: Cutting me up ::
Ash his heart onto the ground. Rip his guts out by frustration. Be careful ... you just might kill him ...
Posted at 01:28 pm by xXPunkRockerxX
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
Hey everyone ... holy man, i have had the best days of my life so far. memeber how i said that Maggie was sleeping over the last time i wrote ? welps, her and Tegan slept over, lol. we had an effing blast; we had a spitball fight, named a baby doll orgasm baby, and beat up my little sister, little brother, and little cousin with balloons, lol. member i told you that Kiara, my kitty, got my hamster Peanut and that she lived throught he night ? well, she died ... the night that Maggie came over. : ( i was so sad and i cfried sooo hard. we buried her in the back yard in the rain and had this little ceremony for her. i don't think i'll ever find a hamster as good as her ... * sighs * RIP Peanut !!! BUT !!! it got only so much better. we went to Rock The Valley the next day ( Saturday ) and holy freakin crap, did we have the time of our lives. East On December played, and i met Dan and he gave me his CD, even though he really wasn't supposed to ... lol. he told me that because i remembered meeting him last year at Shelton Day and i remembered his name and everything, that i was worth it, because i was a dedicated fan, lol. i gave him a hug and he signed my arm, and paper, ha ha. then me and Maggie and her sister Sara watched Patent Pending perform ... they were buck nasty !!! gosh, they were awesome, lol. they invited us up on stage and we rocked out so hard. then i met them too, and i gave Mike, the lead singer, a hug when he didn't have a shirt on ... oh my GOD !! lol. gosh he's so hot, lol. go check East On December and Patent Pending out ... look for them on purevolume.com. i also go out with Seanie, and Maggie goes out with Jake, lol. oh man, they're so freaking cute, i love em to death, lol. i'm in class right now writing this ... gosh, i'm so freaking sneaky !!! he he he. welps, i think i'm gonna get going, i wanna listen to East On December ... Dan touched this CD !!!!!! i touched DAN !!!!!!!!!!!! lmao, awwww man. aright, talk to ya'll laters.
Forever In Your Debt, Seanie ...
Casper*
PS. Seanie in Michigan, i miss you !!!!!!!! i promise i'll write you soon ... don't forget about me ...
RIP Peanut the hamster ... the best hamster in the world. i'll never forget you,a nd i love you !! i'll have dreams about you ...
Posted at 10:52 am by xXPunkRockerxX
Friday, October 15, 2004
Hey everyone ... once again, i'm writing from Tech Ed, he he. ummm ... welps, it's been a pretty boring time since i last wrote from Mrs. Pysz's class, nothing exciting has happened. well, since yesterday, i go out with Seanie !!! hah, gosh, he's so cute. Holy man, yesterday, my cat Kiara got at PEANUT !!! she's my hamster, and awwww man, i was so scared. my mom heard something and said "i think Kiara's got Peanut." so we got up and sure enough, there's Peanut, hanging from Kiara's mouth, but alive. so i got down under the table and grabbed Peanut ... and she bit me, like, 4 times. holy shit, it effing hurt like a mother. Peanut hurt her leg, and i didn't think she was going to live through the night. i cried for a while. ya know, i was really sad, i loved Peanut. she's the prettiest hamster ever !!! but then i called Zachand he assurred me she'd be okay if it's only her leg, and Kiara didn't fucking puncture her lungs ... and i went to bed. i woke up this morning ... YES ! SHE'S ALIVE ! lol, aw man, i was so happy. my mom thinks she might have broken her leg or something ... she's limping. i feel terrible, and i'm scared to let Kiara anywhere near her at all, lol. ummm .... what else has happened ... welps, Maggie is sleeping over tonight !!!!! YESSSSSS !!!! lol. we're gonna play the hamper game like we used to in 4th grade, ha ha. we just sit in a hamper and rock back and forth in it until we fall, lmao. we'll probably do outr famous handshake that we've remembered since 4th grade, too. she's my bestest friend, lol. Maggie goes out with JAKE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yessssssssssssssssssssss. so it's like a double wammy, lol. Seanie and Jake are sooooo friggin cute, oh man. Jake is just my friend, i don't like him .... i like Seanie !!!! he he he ... welps, i must be on my way, maggie and me are gonna plan out our night. tonight, if it isn't raining, me, her and Tegan will walk down to the football game ... then, tomorrow, me, her, Steph, Manny, Seanie, Jake, Jimmy, and a crap load of other people are going to Rock the Valley to see EAST ON DECEMBER !!!!!! toot toot !!! welps, talk to you on the flippy !! I LOVE YOU MAGGIE !!!!!! lol ... Jack and Jill went up the hill to fetch a pail of water. Jack fell down and broke his crown and Jill came tumbling after !!!!! lmao
Forever in your Debt ...
Casper*
Posted at 09:01 am by xXPunkRockerxX
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
hey everyone ... yep, as you can probably tell, i'm writing in school; but this time, i'm not in tech ed, lol. actually, i'm in Mrs. Pysz's room !!!! YAY !!!! lol. hot damn, do i loooooooove Mrs. Pysz. she's gotta be the coolest teacher in the whole world; coolest science teacher to be exact. wowie, Curtis is a loser, lol. he told me i was a nerd for like, the 30th time. not that it bothers me but ... he is really killing the damn joke, lol. JOHNNY CAKES !!! lol. Maggie and Vikkie love Johnny Cakes !!! he he. well, i had a hard time last week; thought i was going out with Manny but i wasn't ... really confusing, actually. but now he likes this girl* that i'm not supposed to say ... and he's like " oh my God, Vikkie, please help me, i'm too shy to ask her out !!" aw man, its so effing cute, lol. you know what ? i think i like Melson ... when i hung out with him at Shelton Day, i realized that i kinda like him, lol. i don't know, maybe it's a different feeling. noooo ... i think i like him, lol. welps, ya know, i think i i'm gonna go, the bell is gonna ring and i gotta go get my book because i needa meet Manny at his locker and i CAN'T WASTE ANY EFFING TIME !!! lol, because 5th period sucks, and i'm always late and i don't feel like getting an office detention, lol. so i'll talk to everyone a little later, okies ? leave some damn comments, i haven't seen any since like, last year. GOD !!!!!! FREAKIN' IDOTS !!!!!!!! lol. oh God Mike, you got me into that now.
shiggity shiggity shwah .... MELSON !!! ah ha ha.
Hoplessly Dedicated to You ...
Casper**
Posted at 11:00 am by xXPunkRockerxX
Friday, September 24, 2004
Ahoy, maties ... whats goin on ? nothin really here, finally gettin another entry in, but of course, while i'm in school, lol. sittin here with my babe Maggie, lol. so, how has everyone been ? yep, still grounded from the computer because my mom is being a butthead ... lol. not alot has really happened ... just a few tiny things. ummm ... Mark asked me out, but i said no because of many reasons ... ya know, already i got cheated on by my last boyfriend, so i just feel like going single for a while. Zach had severe bronchitus ... actually, he probably is still sick in bed. the last time i talked to him, he sounded terrible. ummm ... went to the football game last Friday, met a guy, his anme was DJ. met him through Kyle. lol, it was funny, we were connected through his head phones and the cd player, because it was in his pocket and i had his headphone ( listening to Slipknot ) and he's like, " What am i, yor bitch now ? " lol i was like " yeah !! " he he ... ummm ... HOLY CRICKET, i'm going camping this weekend, and i'm goin with Tegan, Kaytee, Tommy, Alex, Dave, Lauren, my family, and Tegan's dad and Barb ... holy man, its gonna be so freakin fun, because its Halloween there !!!!! he he, we're gonna get shitloads of candy, the place is huuuuuge, and we're stayin all weekend, and MAN there is gonna be alota guys there, lol. I'M SINGLE !!!! lol, no i'm no slut skank-whore ... i'd throw myself into oncoming traffic before i ever became one of those things. well ... nothin else has really happened, so i think i'm gonna go, bell should be ringing soon, and i gotta study for my freakin test in Academic, DAMMIT ! i forgot about that, lol. welps, i guess i'll talk to you all on the flip flop !!!! * i miss you, Lucas ... *
Forever in your Debt ...
Hopelessly Dedicated,
Casper*
Posted at 09:23 am by xXPunkRockerxX
Friday, September 17, 2004
Hey hey, whats goin on everyone ?!?! Ii'm writin you from tech ed class and ... Mr. G. is being all cool and lettin our class go on the computers and do whatever we want, lol. today, we've got the pep rally ... oodles and noodles of fun, lemme tell you, lol. our whole friggin school is decorated with all the signs and shit and everyone is all in school spirit. i mean, i'm actually wearing a derby sweatshirt, lol. i'm sittin here with Maggie, one of my bestest friends, who invented the " sit-in-the-hamper-and-push-yourself-over" game, he he. tech ed is always fun here, just because Mr. G. is the coolest. but as sad as it is, our old group isn't together anymore for this class as it was last year. Ashley and Lea aren't in me and Maggie's classes anymore, and me and Mag don't sit with Amanda, we sit with Tyler, lol. but it's all gravy baby, ya know ? we still have a good time. and W ... T... F !!!!!!!!!!! i freakinf orgot to tell you !!!! me and babe Maggie created a fan club ... for LUCAS !!!!!!! Anyone ever read that book ? if you haven't, go read it or i'll beat you with a stick man, its such a goooooooooooood book. its called Lucas, by Kevin Brooks, and Lucas on the cover is reeeeeally damn hot man, and thats out fan club ... its for Lucas !!!!! lol, geez louize, we're such dorks, heh heh. but dorks and nerds are dead sexy, so ... in your eye !! lol. arighty, i think i'm gonna go because i wanna go on some other sites, man. aright, talk to ya'll on the flip flop !!!!
My heart now it always breaks,
The blood did drip and I did take
Another wish, another kiss, no more will for me to kill.
We'd run away in our dismay,
But please, come back, to me ... < 3
(( hopelessly dedicated ... ))
Forever in Your Dept ...
Casper*
Posted at 09:11 am by xXPunkRockerxX
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